Have you ever been told you were "too much"? Too sarcastic? Too focused? Too serious? Too laid-back? Too sensitive? Too passive? Too aggressive? It turns out I've been told I was "too much" a lot in my life... and I just realized it today. What's worse, I've been told this by a lot of people that really love me. Family, friends, several exes... I've spent days, months, years, toning myself down because other people are overwhelmed. I've stayed me... just a more "handlable" version of me. And here's the catch... God made me just as I am. On purpose. He made me the worried, sensitive, serious, exuberant person that I now only let out with people I know love me. And even they are concerned. They don't want me to be so sensitive that I get hurt, so serious that I forget to laugh... but the truth is that God can protect me from those concerns because He made me, me.
Yes, I know. This isn't about Israel. And is a bit more personal that I ever thought I would put on a blog... but I'm betting on two things... 1) No one actually reads this blog except my best friend and 2) Sometimes my life isn't all about living in Israel.
K
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A blog that began as an account of medical school in a foreign country is evolving into an account of my recovery from that experience... a loss of self into a hopeful rediscovery through baking, reading, gardening and laughing, through the things I love.
...Whatever is true, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, let your mind dwell on these things.
In a Nut Shell
- Katie
- Providence, RI, United States
- I am a technically still a fourth year medical student at the Ben Gurion University of the Negev's Medical School for International Health in collaboration with Columbia University Medical Center.
2 comments:
I read your blog! But I don't remember my password so I'm not sure if it's going to let me post this or not. :)
Katie! Not sure if you will ever see this comment, but I had to leave one more comment as this is my favorite post that I have read so far. Thank you for your honesty. I think a lot of us can relate to being told we are "too x"...and thank goodness we are strong enough to commit to being authentically us, no matter what. Glad I have a friend out there who understands this struggle. You continue to be just who you are and everything will work out. Keep the faith my friend. (= Libby
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